... And I'll cry if I want to! And probably shall!
Today is my birthday and I am 31 years young! It's a sad day though; my first birthday without seeing/speaking to my Mum. The first one where I won't get a card written by her. And it breaks my heart all over again.
It's also the day before her funeral, where I will be paying tribute to her with words that don't feel enough to explain what a huge part she has been in my life; how huge a part of me has gone with her.
But my lovely partner has invited my dad and two of my nieces over for dinner and he is cooking (from scratch) one of my favourite dinners - Chinese yuk sung, crispy shredded beef with rice... and there will be pudding too, yum.
I did ask him if I could just sleep through today but his answer was a most definite "no". So I will keep my chin(s) up and make the most of the day, as I know Mum would want me too. But I shall miss her all the same.
Love you Mum xxxx
Today is my birthday and I am 31 years young! It's a sad day though; my first birthday without seeing/speaking to my Mum. The first one where I won't get a card written by her. And it breaks my heart all over again.
It's also the day before her funeral, where I will be paying tribute to her with words that don't feel enough to explain what a huge part she has been in my life; how huge a part of me has gone with her.
But my lovely partner has invited my dad and two of my nieces over for dinner and he is cooking (from scratch) one of my favourite dinners - Chinese yuk sung, crispy shredded beef with rice... and there will be pudding too, yum.
I did ask him if I could just sleep through today but his answer was a most definite "no". So I will keep my chin(s) up and make the most of the day, as I know Mum would want me too. But I shall miss her all the same.
Love you Mum xxxx