Now I've caught the horrible cold virus going around, and while I would ordinarily be able to carry on and fight through it today I hit a wall - hard! I didn't sleep an ounce last night, too much on my mind as well as a pounding headache and an unquenchable thirst and not being able to breathe because of the cold.
So today for the first time in a long time, I admitted defeat and had a sick day.
More than that, yesterday we found out Mum's cancer has spread further and I finally succumbed to feeling hopeless and helpless. Feeling unwell on stop of this world-shattering news meant I just couldn't handle the thought of putting on a face and carrying on with the normal routine...
There is no normal now.
But I've had my pity party and tomorrow (sleep permitting), I shall pop back on my 'business as usual' face and get back to the routine. I think I will start back on my writing though - that much I can control, and I can lose myself in the worlds I create where I can change the course of events when things get to hard or too scary.
Big love to all of the brave souls fighting this evil disease, and all my love and hugs to the families and loved ones going through what we are.
xxx